Sunday, June 7, 2009

Seriously...

...SERIOUSLY...
Do we have to keep waiting? I mean for goodness sakes...what are you trying to teach me,
what are you trying to illuminate in my life...WHAT???
We have trusted you, we have cried out to you, we have obeyed you, we have served you,
we have sacrificed for you....
We have laid down at your feet and begged...we've stood tall and praised...
we have humbled ourselves...
We have called out to you in our distress and we have shouted from the roof tops about your GLORY...we have told people about you, we have shared your truth with others...
We have mourned, grieved, hurt, and been in pain...we have laughed, been overwhelmed, excited, danced the Praise Ya Jesus Dance...
We have learned, we have grown, we have leaned....
We have been grateful and we have been sad...we have been appreciative...
But seriously Lord....just show me...I want ALL OF YOU. NOTHING BUT YOU...
So I will continue to trust, learn, shout for joy, feel pain, laugh, beg, cry, praise, wait, sacrifice, lay at your feet, obey and serve...and if all it gets me is MORE OF YOU...then, well...
THIS JOURNEY WILL BE SERIOUSLY WORTH IT!!!!

3 comments:

Molly said...

All I can say is that I am so proud of you. I am sorry, because I know that is probably not what you want to hear right now. I have no words of wisdom because you are doing this beautifully. You have simply handed this over to Christ and you've left it at His feet.

I am praying and I am sorry. All my love!

elisa said...

Hey Lindsey, I JUST finished writing a blog that you have to read. I have been screaming loud enough for both of us those same words. I'm not sure why, because God doesn't need me to scream, but I've definetly been shaking my fist....LOL! I love you and know your pain.

AmesPayne said...

I seriously can't believe you are still waiting as well. You are the first person that I have been close to that has chosen the beautiful gift of adoption so this journey has been a learning experience for me. I can honestly say that even though it has been a long, hard walk....you are still an incredible inspiration. You inspire me to keep praying for my own desires even though I just want to give up....you inspire me to have the faith that God will take care of us....you inspire me to push through the hard times with the joy of simply leaning on my Savior more. I love you and am blessed to have you in my life.... you fight for me and you are greatest friend I have ever known. I'm still praying like crazy for Baby Gerdes'!!!!