Monday, June 30, 2008


00000000....these are the #'s I am really wanting to appear on my cell phone. You see when our agency calls us that's what shows up. Their # isn't published on the caller ID for security purposes.

I really want this # to appear and then to hear Sarah or Cindy say "Lindsey, yall have been chosen." I might pass out! I am not joking, hopefully I will be with Jason when it happens so he can catch me before I fall. Its like taking a pregnancy test and waiting to see if it gives the + sign...I jumped and acted like a crazy person...along with shaking and freaking out! I can't wait to have that feeling again.

Please Lord...let something amazing happen this week! Give us some flicker of light in this adoption tunnel we are in. Thank you Lord that you already have this ALL figured out.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Hardest Part

Sitting in my office @ home wondering to myself...what is the hardest part of adoption??

Is it the constant waiting? The endless hours of paperwork? The comments from people who just have NO idea what adoption is about? Is it the pain I feel every time in my heart knowing that the child God created for me is NOT yet in my arms?

What is it? The Hardest Part??

Is it seeing children around eyes have never been so drawn to bi-racial children. And for some reason I see their wonderful faces more and more with each passing day.

Each day we wait I love our baby more. Each day we gets harder. If I pause long enough during my day to think about it...well the water works begin to flow.

Is the hardest part knowing that my life, our life, will drastically change when our baby is given to us? Will the baby bond to us? Will Jackson freak out? Heck, will I freak out??

I think the hardest part is just not knowing...but PRAISE YOU LORD that you know EVERY detail.

God we are yours...we say YES...even to the HARDEST PART.