Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Our Jacks!!!

This blog has mainly been about our adoption! Well...we also have another Chosen Treasure in our family...our 5 year old Jackson! The most precious little 5 year old!!!!

I wanted to share some crazy things he has said lately.....

  • We are trying to get him to stop sucking his thumb....not fun! He has a blankie...and if he has his blankie then he will suck his thumb. Jason hid the blankie and then went to California for a conference. Jackson and I were laying in bed one night and he said..."Here's the deal, if dad doesn't give me my blankie back he will have a choice, either I will call the police and he will go to jail, or he can go to time out, or he will get a spanking." I was laughing so hard!!!! But he was SO serious!!!!!

  • The other day we were driving home from church and I asked him if he would snuggle with me while we watched the movie Bolt. In a very serious voice he said...."mom, not today, I will snuggle with you tomorrow when I get home from school." This might not be funny to some...but my child is a PLANNER. Ive joked that he needs a Franklin Covey planner...he gets this planning quality from his wonderful mother :) But I have ruined him....he now has to schedule me in!!!! UH!!!!!!

  • Monday I was getting him ready for school. We were running late cause we all slept in :) I was telling him over and over again...come on Jacks, HURRY up!!! Hurry!!!! He said "Mom, don't panic...I will be ready!" Its the way he says these things...its SO funny. Jason and I just look at each other and try to hold in the laughter!

We love love love this little boy! He is the apple of our eye and he keeps us rolling at all times!

Sweet Love

Oh Precious Child,
My heart is longing to see your face. I cant even begin to explain how this journey has changed me, I wouldn't trade it for the world. But my heart is at the point where it needs a miracle! I am praying today that your precious birth mom would go to New Life, meet with the sweet ladies there, and if adoption is her option...that she would see our profile and desire to place you in our home. Oh sweet child, we are ready for you.

I cant believe we have been waiting this long to see your face...you must be a blessing, a blessing I could have never imagined. I'm ready to see your toes and fingers. I'm ready to see your precious eyes and little nose. I'm ready to show you off to all the wonderful people who have been praying diligently for you...for so long! There is a saying...It takes a village to raise a child...well God has blessed us with the most amazing "village." They are all so ready to love on you and show you that you BELONG here!!! I cant wait to see their faces when they see the child they have been praying for...what a glorious day that will be.

I feel like I have prayed EVERY prayers imaginable for you...health, quick bonding, your birth mom and all the emotions she will feel, that you will feel loved, for Jackson to be an amazing big brother....oh how the list goes on and on!

Here lately...our prayer has been...bring our child home quickly, Lord. We want you to become a Gerdes and know the power of Christ's Love! Adoption SAVED the World....its the most powerful act of Love that any man has ever shown. We feel such an honor and privilege to make you our own through adoption. You are OUR child, you will be loved as if I gave birth to you. You don't EVER have to wonder if we are passionate about you...we are! You don't ever have to wonder if we will provide for you...we will! You don't ever have to wonder if we love you...we do! FOREVER!!!!

You were created with a purpose! And you were created for our family. What an amazing gift!

We will always be thankful for your precious birth mom...she chose life! We will love her and pray for her daily. She is a gift to our family. My prayer is that we will have an amazing relationship with her.

Sweet love, we are ready to see you! Please come home soon! My heart is heavy today...I'm ready to meet you! You are loved so much by your forever family!

Mommy

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

A Cat on the Prowl....

...yep thats what I feel like! I feel like a momma cat....just waiting to give birth. We had a cat growing up, her name was Callie. Sweet cat...but she got pregnant ALL THE TIME!!!! As soon as she would pop out one litter she was already prego with another one. A Skanky cat :)

Okay so I am not calling myself a skanky cat....but Callie would roam around the house the week prior to her giving birth...and she just couldn't get settled. She would lay down for a bit and then walk around, scratch stuff, bathe herself...she just COULDN'T BE STILL. And btw that cat ALWAYS had her kittens in MY CLOSET.

***I promise this post has a point!

I can NOT get settled! The moment I lay down I think of one more thing to add to my "before we get the call" list. I'm telling you...I think I might be going looney!!!!

And its the little things...that don't really matter that have me all in a tizzy! I'm driving myself crazy...and my poor hubby!

Tonight I had a freak out because our shrubs in front of our house are TOO tall...who cares...well obviously I did...UH!!!!

I know life doesn't STOP once we get a baby...but I want to have things all in order (as much as I can).

I'm just saying...if your husband isn't busy this weekend...well send him over to my house to help my husband with the honey do list. This list is getting longer and longer...cause I am a CAT ON THE PROWL!!!

***Maybe this post doesnt have a point!!! But I just had to get it off my chest!!!!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Found

FOUND by Hillsong

Verse 1:Amazing love,
now what else shall I need
Your name brings life,
it's more than the air I breathe

Verse 2:My world has changed,
when Your life You gave for me
My purpose found
and all that You want for me

PreChorus 1:And I've found myself in You, Lord
And I've found myself in You

PreChorus 2:And I've found myself in You, Jesus
And I've found myself in You, Lord

Chorus:
So take me to a place
where I can see You face to face
and all I wanna do, all I wanna do
is worship You
So take me to a place
where I can see You face to face
and all I wanna do, all I wanna do
is worship You

****Lord help me to remember that I am only to be found in you! Not found in fear or worry, not found in my own agenda, not found in my selfish desires! But only found IN YOU. I am searching and waiting for you...not simply for what you can give me. I dont want to miss what you are trying to teach me during this journey. I want to grasp every detail of your plan for my life and I want to learn to live only found in you! I love you Jesus! I want to see your face...take me to a place to WORSHIP YOU...I want to be found in you!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Save the Humans...save our Child

Our pastor started a new series called Save the Humans...powerful message!!!

I sat there in a complete hormonal mess as he talked about how during childbirth if the Hebrew woman was giving birth to a boy then the midwives were to kill the child.

15 The king of Egypt said to the Hebrew midwives, whose names were Shiphrah and Puah, 16 "When you help the Hebrew women in childbirth and observe them on the delivery stool, if it is a boy, kill him; but if it is a girl, let her live." 17 The midwives, however, feared God and did not do what the king of Egypt had told them to do. Ex 1:15-17

I wanted to stand up and say....that's the way I feel about our child!!! His life MUST be spared...his life MUST count for something!

My heart is so burdened for the salvation of our child. The salvation from beginning to end...first off be saved from death...our child could easily have been aborted but obviously our birthmom is choosing life.

And then God saving this child and placing him/her in our home. Please hear me on this...I still love our birthmom...but again...she realizes that its in the best interest of this baby for her to choose adoption!

And then the salvation of his heart. I cant wait until the day that this precious child accepts Jesus as his/her Lord and Savior.

I want our child to be rescued SOON!!! I want him/her home with us!

I want to love on our birthmom...I'm telling you...the love I have for her is absolutely the most amazing thing. I never thought I would be so passionate about a woman giving birth...but she is giving birth to our child. Forever I will be grateful. We HAVE to change our minds on birthmoms...they are WOMEN who need a SAVIOR and need us as adoptive mothers to love on them. Now I know not every situation is the same...sometimes the birthmom/family doesn't want to have anything do with the adoptive family...this is where we PRAY like never before. Don't we want our child's heritage to be healthy and Christ centered! These birthmoms are precious....I'm telling you...I cant wait to meet her!

Save the Humans...save our Child. Please join with me in prayer today! I am crying out to our Father that he will bring a birthmom to NEW LIFE (our agency), that she will look at our profile and SOMETHING will capture her heart about our family. The enemy is alive and he wants NOTHING more for this child to NOT come into this world. No body messes with a Gerdes Baby!!!!! This child has been CHOSEN...chosen to be apart of this world, chosen to serve and love!!! Please pray today for a miracle to take place.